Is love blind? .......Oh yes it is!! - Episode 14

Aashu’s home: She is waiting for Deepak…..Deepak comes dot on time……They start to college on his bike

Deepak: [hesitantly] sorry Aashu….

Aashu: [hears it faintly….so she comes nearer to him] sorry?? Kyun??

Deepak: [her lips touch his ears lightly] kal ke liye…..kuch aur soch mein dhooba tha…aur tumse rudely behave kiya…..

Aashu: [in a concerned tone…….moves closer to his ears…..it made him feel a bit awkward] it’s ok Deepak…..i guessed it……tumaare aur Kripa ke beech mein kuch tension chal raha hai na??

Deepak: mere aur Kripa ke???? [In a loud voice….slightly angered]

Aashu: haan….tum dono ke beech koyi jagada hai na…isiliye tum tensed rahete ho…..

Deepak: yeh sab tumse kisne kaha?

Aashu: Anjali ne……aaj subah ussne phone kiya tha…..

Deepak: [he is so angry that he can swallow Anjali as such!!!] [Mind voice: ANJALI!!!! Main hi idiot hoom…..usse help lene chala…..woh help karthe karthe aur mushkilen create kar rahi hai!!]

Aashu: kya hua?

Deepak: kuch nahi!!

Aashu: mera matlab hai….tum dono ke beech mein kya hua tha??

Deepak: [getting frustated] maine kaha na hum dono ke beech kuch bhi nahi hai….na hoga!!! Pehle thodi friendship thi par ab ho bhi nahi hai!!!

Aashu: [taken aback by his reaction] itna gussa??maine toh aise hi poocha tha…..

Deepak: pooch ne keliye yahi baat milaa kya??

Aashu: [angry] haan…..yahi milaa….mujhe wahi baat jaan na hai!!

Deepak: tumaari problem kya hai Aashu??

Aashu: meri problem????

Deepak: haan….Kyun kisi aur ladki ko hamaare beech laa rahe ho???

Aashu: Excuse me!!! Hamaare!!!! What did you mean by that???

Deepak: mmmmm….I meant why are you dragging her name in our talks???

Aashu: tumse baat karna hi behkaar hai…..chalo….college aagayi…..leave me here……[pointing to the lab building]

[Deepak is angry with himself for spoiling yet another opportunity……He drives off leaving Aashu there…..]

Sid’s POV:
Days passed by and our friendship grew…..I was close enough to call her at any time….We spoke about anything and everything under the sun…..Here and there, I used to indirectly hint my love for her….. But she never responded to it…..either she didn’t understand it or she chose to ignore it……She kept asking me about the girl in my life…..I wondered if she was feeling jealous or was she getting possessive….As a matter of fact, I was loving that feeling……

The feeling of being owned by her…..My friends often made fun linking us….”A girl and a guy can never be so close if they are just friends….It must be something more than that…..She is surely in love with you….So go ahead and propose, she will never disagree” this was their ready made advice for me!!!

I had initially thought that our growing friendship was a blessing in disguise but as time flew by, I felt otherwise……Our growing friendship prevented me from directly proposing to her…..What if she broke the friendship???What if she mistakes me???What if she rejected me??
I never had the guts to face such questions!!!

Meanwhile, Deepak and Aashu used to hang out a lot…..Unofficially, they were treated like a couple now though both denied it…..Anjali used to talk a lot about them…..on how she avoided Aashu and let them alone…how Aashu mistook her and fought with her? etc etc……

I would say Deepak’s love for Aashu was favorable for me….I could spend more time with Anjali…..There was nothing happening in her life which I didn’t know…..She being the chatty, chirpy girl, used to tell everything to me…..Many a times, she used to tell me “What would I do without you?” and at those times atleast I felt that she loved me too…..

Finally, I decided to make that last move…..I made up my mind to propose to her…..I chose my b’day which was exactly a month later as the D-day…….This b’day would either be the best day of my life or the worst!!Whatever, I decided to go ahead with it…….

Deepak’s POV:
Thank god, our tiffs got resolved and we were comfortable with each other…..I should thank Anjali too….She played a main part in this……..

But Kripa remained a mystery yet…..
On holi, we had a quarrel which created kind of cold vibes between us…….She just plainly refused to talk to me….for the reasons best known to her……Anjali and Aashu tried to talk to her about it but she changed the topic quite easily and slipped away…..

But I found out her problem…..She was in love, that was for sure…..but with whom???None of us knew the answer……

Once, I saw that she had left her scrap note book at her desk…..…….I took it with the good intention of returning it safely……If left there, it might get misplaced…..

I didn’t show it to anybody else…..something prevented me from doing so….Afterall it was a personal possession…..We aren’t supposed to trespass that……..So I refrained myself from opening it too…..But fate had decided it the other way……The air from the table fan in the canteen corner blow the book open….I stole a glance at the page……One sentence said it all…

"Why did you come into my life? Will you vanish like a mirage? Night is the time when everyone sleeps but that’s the time for me to wet the pillows with tears….."

I closed the book and kept it back at her desk……I had enough problems for myself and couldn’t take on more….Moreover such matters are way too personal and sensitive to be discussed with a third person like me….

[He didn’t have the slightest idea that the person who gave her the biggest pain was he himself and he wasn’t a third person afterall!!!]

Sid’s POV:

I started preparing for my b’day……All along, I used to celebrate my b’day in phases…..The b’day eve belonged to my friends….we used to meet up in some big place, and party till the early hours of the next day……My entire next day belonged to my mom…….She gets some pundits to perform poojas for my well being…..a visit to the mandir was in the agenda too……That’s my mom’s way of celebrating a b’day……especially mine……She is always concerned about me……Are all moms like this??

Whatever it was, I wanted all those blessings and prayers for that day……

I neither wanted to hurt my friends and their sentiments nor my mom’s beliefs…….so all that remained as such this year…….But the evening was exclusively dedicated for Anjali……I never told her about my b’day…..I kept it a secret…..I wanted to give her a surprise…..may be she knew my b’day, may be not…..but we never discussed it….may be she wanted to give me a surprise…..i wished that it happened………….

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Yahan, wahan, sab jahan bas pyar hi pyar hai………….

“True love is considered the blessings of God. Love is a beautiful song. Two strangers sing this beautiful song. Love makes life worthwhile. It causes an emotional roller coaster ride.

When a person loves someone truly, it would be unconditional. Love is blind, as one becomes selfless. Love is one of the most intense feelings, as you can touch, see or hear it. One can feel this love within heart. True love is not scared of anything. Everyone experience this wonderful feeling once in his/her lifetime. So, get ready to propose your dream girl or boy.”

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One romantic Sunday evening…………… (Exactly a week before Sid’s b’day)

Both our lover boys are going through this tough phase of love……on the verge of proposing!!!
One more person who is cupid struck and is unable to propose is Sheetal…….She is finally out of the virtual dream land and facing the hard reality of true love………….

Sid & Anjali are out on a walk on the beach…….Sid suggested the plan and she willingly sprang up to it…..
As the waves touch their feet, they are enjoying each others company and the cool breeze…….The sensation of the cool water is sending up chills in both of them……
Anjali is talking non stop….about her friends, about her day etc………

Sid is silently admiring her, uske masoomiyath, bacche jaisa hasi, uske aankhon ke chamak………and thinking about his love……he just wants to tell her his love, hug her, show the intensity of his love…..kiss her……….One look into his eyes and that said it all……but Anjali never bothered to focus on him …….She was engrossed in her sweet nothings and giggling all along…….I wondered “Was she purposefully ignoring his looks and feelings?? Or was she so innocent??”

Kaise Bataye Kyun Tujhko Chahe
Yaara Bata Na Paaye
Baatein Dilon Ki Dekho Zuban Ki Aankhe Tujhe Samjhayen
Tu Jaane Na
Tu Jaane Na
Tu Jaane Na
Tu Jaane Na

Deepak is at his home and thinking about his past conversations with Aashu……All the outings and conversations ran through his mind again and again……

Everything appeared perfect between them now except for the fact that Aashu never acknowledged or reciprocated to his love……She always chose to treat him as a friend and ignored his unsaid love……Nothing could be predicted from her face, her eyes, her words……She was soooo casual with him….no jealousy, no possessiveness, nothing which could show that she too had feelings for him……He felt that his confidence was slowly leaving him…….Anjali used to continuously keep boosting him up and asking him to go ahead…..”arre Deepak, aise kitne din chalega…..kabhi na kabhi tumko yeh step lena hai…..jitna jaldi kahoge utna tum dono keliye accha hoga”

He thought about her words and smiled at it…..”Kuch toh signal milna chahiye, yahan toh ek nazar bhi nahi milaa….phir kaise aage chaloom” 

As always, it looked as if they were miles apart in their feelings, in their hearts…..though they were physically near…..

Hmmmil Ke Bhi
Hum Na Mile
Tumse Na Jane Kyun
Milon Ki Hai Fasle
Tumse Hai Jaane Kyun
Anjane Hain Silsile
Tum Se Na Jaane Kyun
Sapne Hai Palkon Tale
Tum Se Na Jaane Kyun
Kaise Bataye Kyun Tujhko Chahe
Yaara Bata Na Paaye
Baatein Dilon Ki Dekho Zuban Ki Aankhe Tujhe Samjhayen
Tu Jaane Na
Tu Jaane Na

Tu Jaane Na
Tu Jaane Na


[Back to the sea shore……
Her hair is left loose and he feels that it is wavering to the rhythm of the waves………..her dupatta keeps caressing him…….she tries to control it but fails miserably……..the gentle feel of it is soothing to him…….In between, he looks at waves and thinks…… “How fortunate they are…….Waves and the sands had an ongoing love affair…….How beautifully they express their love!!!” ]

Sid’s mind: Each time a big wave comes towards us, she jumped to my side and clung on to my arm……..She held me tightly….She didn’t loosen the grip till the wave went back….The longer she was in my arms, the more I felt she loved me………In between her giggles, our eyes locked for a second but she would look away into the never ending sea…..If it lasted for more than that, she would have realized how much I loved her……she would sense my passion for her……

Nigahon Mein Dekho Meri Jo Har Bas Gaya
Woh Hai Milta Tumse Hoo Bahu

Ooo Jane Teri Aankhen Thi Ua
Ya Baatein Thi Wajah
Huye Tum Jo Dil Ki Arzooo

Tum Paas Ho Ke Bhi
Tum Aas Ho Ke Bhi
Ehsaaas Ho Ke Bhi
Apne Nahi

Aise Hai Apne Gile
Tum Se Na Jane Kyun

She was admiring the beauty of the setting sun……
Night was setting in…….Stars peeped out slowly from their heavenly abode…….chand kahi dhika nahi….…..mere chandini ko dekh kar shayad chand bhi bahar aane se sharmaagayi!!!

Ek toottha hua taara dhika…..Anjali closed her eyes to wish something……I closed my eyes too…….I wonder what she wished for…..i badly wanted to know it……but my wish was quite clear…..

”All my coming days should start and end with Anjali……I wished to see the sunrise and sunsets with her in my arms”……I opened my eyes quickly and realized Anjali was looking at me……”tumme bhi inn sab mein vishwas hai”….I replied looking at the sky…”haan…bohat vishwas hai”

Anjali:[curiously] accha kya wish kiya??

Sid: tum kaho……girls first!!!

Anjali: wish ko bataana nahi chahiye….poora nahi hoga!!!

Sid: ohhhh…..toh main bhi nahi bataaunga….I need this wish granted at any cost!!! [I said that in a determined tone]

With that, we moved on…..a soothing silence set in…we seem to enjoy that….”uske mann mein friendship ke aage bhi kuch hai….yeh sirf dhosti nahi ho sakthi……” I felt someone chanting this in my mind……I smiled…….

She noticed my smile but didn’t ask the reason…..she was never like that…..She never missed an opportunity to talk or question…….Instead she responded to me with a smile……It was not a "typical Anjali smile"….

It looked different today……but cute…..everything she did was cute!!! But her smile confused me this time…….
May be she longed to hear my confession….but I remained silent as we walked on and on…….


Aashu was also in some deep thoughts, she didn’t have her friend near her….She missed her…..jabse Sid ke dhosti mili hai, woh mujhe ignore karthi hai…….I just wish she doesn’t fall into his traps…..I wish she acts sensibly……
Am I getting over protective for her??? may be, afterall it is my duty to protect her…..she is my best friend and……………..ummm friend!!!

Aashu also dreams of someone……….He is not there with me now….par woh mere dil mein bas gaya hai…….

[The scenes alternate between…Sid-Anjali, Deepak, Aashu, Sheetal……..]


Sheetal is engrossed into her PC....no no she is not studying.....her thoughts are wandering somewhere between her dreams and the virtual world........she is chatting with someone…….Its jeeth…..hmmm yeah, he is her net friend…She hasn’t seen him yet……She doesn’t know anything about him, is he real??If so, where is he? Is his name really that?? What does he do??? Nothing…..nothing at all……but she just knew one thing, that she loved him…..yes….she is such a stupid innocent girl……

Sheetal may be physically miles away from him but her heart always beats for him…..She always thinks about him which make her quite close to him……..His mind is however not very clear.....Does he love her too or is it just a time pass???......Thats something which only time can tell!!!

Milon Ki Hai Fasle
Tumse Hai Jaane Kyun
Tu Jaane Na
Tu Jaane Na
Tu Jaane Na
Tu Jaane Na

Khayalon Mein Lakhon Batein
Yun Keh Gaya
Bola Kuch Na Tere Samne
Oo O
Kaise Bataye Kyun Tujhko Chahe
Yaara Bata Na Paaye
Baatein Dilon Ki Dekho Zuban Ki Aankhe Tujhe Samjhayen
Tu Jaane Na
Tu Jaane Na
Tu Jaane Na
Tu Jaane Na


(To be continued)